I don’t know where to start
So I’m just gonna start anywhere
Just like you making out with me
Whenever you feel
Like you got me wrapped around your finger
And maybe you do, but I’m only partly to blame
I let go of you, but I only pretended
And you keep snatching me in
While chatting with your vultures
Where are you, wanna meet later
I have a thing for bathroom stalls
Hold on, one more sip
And I can blame it on the alcohol
Wash my vodka down
With a shot of liquid cocaine
I’m gonna shove my tongue down your throat
No, I’m here with no one
But me, I stand aside
And I let it happen because we aren’t together
But why does it feel like my insides are caving in!?
Why am I starting to get angry
Holding back my tears with rage
Why did you come out of that stall and hug me!?
Why did you snatch me away and rub against me on the dancefloor
Why’d you lean in for a kiss!?
I don’t know where your lips have just been
But a bite on the neck to show my lust and anger
But there is fear in my eyes
I watch your movements
Head cocked, lips ready
You try again
And I deny again, because I’m no one’s seconds
I’m the mother fucking main course!
I’m sorry that you didn’t get the memo
You couldn’t tell by how I put it on you that night
So good I had your head in the pillow!
Tiny screams of pleasure, you clutched my thighs for a deeper push
And I gave you all I had
Just like I did from day one
But you felt the need to push me away
I think I know the reason, but your actions aren’t clear
I wanted to believe it was Jack, Jim, and Joe
But you tell me you don’t wanna be hurt
I’d like to know when I hurt you
When I scared you away
Was I just too serious!?
Was I just too much for you?
I thought I was everything you wanted
A boyfriend who would never cheat
A boyfriend who thinks about you every chance I get
A boyfriend to raise you up and never bring you down
Someone you could count on
Someone who’d always be there for you
And I am there for you
Even now as I drown in my tears
Because I have to say goodbye to a perfectly good thing
The only thing rusty is the diamonds on your skin
You say you’re fucked up
Well fix it!
I guess I wasn’t enough to make you wanna be better
And if that’s the case I guess it’s okay that I sit here alone
Breaking my bonds with you as quick as I can
Because I don’t wanna hurt either
My pain like lightning upon my skin
My thunder you have already heard
I have to take a new role
As the bestfriend
Parts of me wonder if I wasn’t good enough for you
Or dirty enough
You tell me not to move on so quickly
When you have already moved on to some creep
But I guess I’m glad he was weird
Cause you would have done exactly what you thought I was doing to you!
Don’t move on too quickly
But I’d like to know what you are looking for?
Are you gonna move on
Because if you’re too fucked up for a relationship
I’d like to know why you’re even looking
All you want right now is a fuck
And that’s fine, I’ve been there
But deep inside your heart bleeds for a relationship
And I could have been so good for you
I think you know that
But you are letting your ticket expire
I wish I could promise a second chance
But no one has ever been able to get through before
So go and do your thing
Fuck all the sluts you want, and Imma get mine
Don’t you worry about me
You already think I have a few things lined up
I’d love to know why you care
Since you’re the one letting go
But I’ll be your bestfriend
I promise I’ll be good
This was just me getting shit off my chest
So here’s to us!
Being friends and going from here
We will grow and prosper
And I can’t promise you won’t fall in love with me
I’m told I’m a lovable guy
Ask all my exes that beg for me back
I could sit you down with all of them
And they’d tell you not to let me pass by
I don’t know why it sounds like I’m begging for you back
The damage is done
And I’ll be there for you
Everyday lunch date, late night snuggles
I don’t know how long all of that will last
But I’ll try my best with you
But I have a particular thing I’m looking for
And I’m gonna search for it
Sorry if my time with you shortens
Or maybe if it isn’t like before
But you can’t have your cake and eat it too
Not with me
I don’t deserve that kind of disrespect
What I will give you is my friendship
Of the deepest kind
Because you already have a piece of my heart
That I can never get back
Just don’t use it against me
Cause I’m not strong when it comes to my heart
So go, live your life
And I’ll be your friend on the sideline
Ready to help you when you are in need
I love you
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