I guess I finally got the hint

I didn't want it to be like this, but this is how it has to be. You can't force something. It has to happen. We both have to be ready at the same time. Even though your reasons don't make any sense, love doesn't make any sense. I hate this part because I know I'm gonna walk away and lock you out and when I do finally lock you out, you will be on your way back. That sucks cause there will be a part of my heart that clenches, but not enough of it to make me budge. I guess I'll take what I can and accept my role at best friend and maybe sometimes with benefits, if my emotions can handle it. I don't know. I'll sit aside and watch you have your fun, and I'll listen to your stories and uncover your foggy memory, while deep down I'll slowly be losing painful parts of myself, each pain the snipping of a string from me to you. Then eventually I will have no more strings. But regardless, you are always in my heart and I will always be here for you.